Tag Archive | creativity

The scales always find a way to level out.

The universe keeps coming through for me at the right time.

There have been times my friends have called me Even Steven – referring to this classic Seinfeld episode http://youtu.be/prvm5ZFPIrE (they’re all classic, really)

It’s not really that accurate, but it’s still funny. I mean I’ve lost 18 basketball Grand Finals and never won one… That was been the cause of much heart ache that I’ve never truly recovered from.

I won’t bother chronicaling every devine moment I’ve experienced, and, that I’ve maybe read too much in to, but I will talk about this particular time.

Three nights ago I got up on stage at a story telling event run by The Moth

I followed my whimsies and signed up last minute (coincidentally, ‘Last Minute’ was their topic for the evening). I was arguably the least prepared as I’d approached the event without even the knowledge you could sign up to tell your own story. My friend Michael and I, I assume, were the only two in that position. He also told a super story. If you’d like to hear my story – I’ve attached it here, it’s an extremely abridged version of rather lengthy ordeal. – http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hDhDyKtVoWQ

The results were wonderful, I was in the lead for the entire event after the judges voted me 27.1 out of 30. I lost to a guy named James who spoke last and scored 27.7 while I was in the toilet getting rid of some hot wings I’d eaten earlier (sorry about that visual). So I don’t even know his story, but I was okay with losing, as the winner would have to re-tell their story on the 2nd of December and I was not going to be in America at that time.

The next day I flew from Chicago and the high of that evening to Austin and the vast expansive lands it offers.

I’d not realised their were no trains here. Nor did I realise that things were spaced out.

Luckily for me, my friends Kaci and Roy are so damn wonderful and seem pretty willing to just drop me off at things and pick me up from them when I’m ready. They are beautiful people. So I went to an Improv jam

Now, I haven’t written in my blog for a damn long time – and that’s probably a result of what I’m about to talk about. So my friends in the interwebs might not even be entirely aware that in the past 18 months I’ve been consumed by Improv. Consumed by it so completely that I worked my way up to teaching it in Melbourne… Which – wows me. I love it. Opening up people’s mind to life’s virtues through improv comedy is one of the greatest whimsies I ever chased. But I’d need to have been blogging consistently for the last 18 months to make it clear how I’ve started having to juggle improv and music in my life

At this time I’m splitting my time on my annual visit to the U.S. between improv and music.

Anyway, the jam, here it is – it was all over the shop, and for one of the first times in my life chasing my creative whimsies I felt like I shouldn’t get up on stage with them, I had no idea why. I started to question if I wanted it bad enough.

A couple of weeks ago I was with my friend Kenny before a show in San Diego, and we were discussing a couple of my tours before this one and he said ‘you were really hustling back then’ (one year I came to San Diego and played 27 times in 23 days.) – that quote from him has stuck with my for the last 3 weeks. Am I not hustling anymore?

I’ve questioned this each time I’ve sat alone at a bar in New York, Chicago, and now Austin. Where in the past I feel I may have tried to spark up conversations and meet new friends.

I used to push and push until people became friends and I found extra stage time… And do I just not want it anymore? Enough? Do I feel less worthy? I haven’t written a song I LOVE in a while…have I lost it?

Then I listed to Amy Poehlers audio book YES PLEASE, and in chapter 25, Amy starts talking about ambivalence being the key to success, and that you should chase your creativity but try to care less about your career.

Oh man – I mean, listen to it… Because I won’t explain its profound impact on me well enough. All I’ll say is, I believe the rate at which I was listening to this audiobook (letting other podcasts interrupt it as I wandered the streets of Chicago etc) was meant to be. I was SUPPOSED to listen to that chapter today, the day I was extra worrying that I don’t hustle enough anymore.

Thank you Amy, thank you Universe.

Trust the path you are on, everyone. Take it easy. Chase your whimsies and live your dreams

Love Broni

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A Song a Week challenge

I've been so content in one half of my music lately. I'm working with some amazing people on the current release and the next few releases. And my current single is racking up views on youtube faster than I expected – check it out

But underneath all that has been the knowledge that I hadn't taken a new song to completion in about 10 months. That song being 'I'm better than your boyfriend' and before that I can't even remember the last song.

I have many a voice memo of an idea I sung to my phone in the car, or a chord progression i was unmotivated to sing to.

And I started to wonder, have I recorded my last batch of songs?

Dramatic, I know. But I'm sure anyone who's gone through this knows what I'm talking about.

I know how to phone it in, and write a song on command, it's not the writing that's hard for me… It's liking what I write that I struggle with. So I've been reluctant to commit to anything and say, unequivocally 'I believe in this song and these lyrics' as I've been able to do with songs in the past.

So I've been searching for something to get me out of this rut. One of my best friends has really serious cancer, its an emotional goldmine of a muse. But I can't go there, it's too close to me right now, I can't step back and really express what it all means to me. Instead I find myself just singing things like “you have cancer, and that fuckin sucks” which we both know, from me, would be a weird song.

Alas, I've continued to struggle finding inspiration to write.

Then my dear friends Rob Deez and Kenny Eng were discussing a weekly songwriting challenge, and it piqued my interest immediately. Every Tuesday night a topic is chosen, by the next Wednesday it has to be completed and uploaded to soundcloud or you owe the other two a 6 pack of beer (stakes are even higher because they live in the US so I'd have to deliver the beer online)

This to me was a perfect way to get writing, and be held accountable for seeing even the crappiest ideas through to the end. The worst that will happen is ill get better at writing or ill owe them lots of beer. So I jumped on in. And the 3 of us are in week 2

The topid of week one was – Elevator/Crush on a Co-worker

Here are our entries

Me: Fries are Cooking

Rob: LF8R Music

Kenny: link coming soon

This weeks topic was – Soul/Giving up

Me: What you said made me sad

Kenny: link coming soon

Rob: Just Keep Swimming

So, now I'm even accountable to you, the audience, who will be aware each week of my failures or successes in the art of songwriting.

Wish me luck, and I hope you like at least 33 percent of the songs. Hot tip – I hate fries are cooking but I've gotta let you hear it, thems the rules.

Hope you're all smiling.

See you with next weeks song.

Love Broni

 

 

todays videos

Hey. I’ve decided to start dividing my weeks up into specific tasks on specific days.

Because i tend to do a little nugget of work on every facet of ‘Broni’ and never finish things.

So for instance, Friday is creative day. It’s one of 2 designated creativity days. Of course i’m not going to close the door on creativity if it comes knocking at any other time, but basically it means i do no admin or businessy stuff on my creative days.

Today i made 3 videos. As well as demoed half of my 3rd album (i know i gotta slow down on that since i haven’t released the second yet) and wrote 2 new songs. Successful first day.

Here are the videos 🙂

Enjoy.

I wrote this song in San Diego while I was at Rebeccas coffee house in south park. A story my friend Jenni told me the night before really got to me. Also, my friends Gimp, and Easy were both in Europe and I was missing hanging out with them, so it all ties in 🙂

 

Hold my hand was the oldest song i had going into the recording of my new album. I nearly didn’t bother putting it through the heartache of recording it and then cutting it. However, once we finished it i realized it was my favourite in many ways. I deliberately left off the first verse in this video, because the first verse is possibly my favourite moment of the album.

 

Kinda self explanatory right??

 

Stay hot!

Broni